Archive for April, 2010


Unemployment is rough.  Wow.  I have only been unemployed for a week, and I am finding it increasingly difficult to find a job.  Call centers seem to be the only places hiring.  I had an interview for a company yesterday.  It seemed like a great job, sounded fun.  Than I learned it was minimum wage.  I haven’t made minimum wage in 10  years.  REALLY!?  I of course took it, I have a second interview sometime next week.  Of course I am going to continue looking.

As I suspected, my fiance isn’t staying as understanding and supportive as she was last week.  Its only been a week, and it happens to be the end of the month, so she has paid every bill, I truly appreciate her for doing so.  It comes across as me being a burden, (which I obviously am) and she isn’t helping my self-esteem a single bit by acting like she is.  Acting like it’s this huge disaster that she isn’t able to buy something for herself, and that she isn’t able to save.  It feels unappreciated that I helped her SO much in the past 3 years.  It feels like all that I have done for her has counted for nothing.  All well.

I love her, I just wish she would understand a little bit better.  I wish she would suck it up, and know that I am trying, and know that I didn’t plan this.  It makes me feel pitiful, and pathetic.

Web Design is still a major move for my future, it just feels really dim right now.   It feels like it’s on pause, no money in, no creativeness going out.  Don’t forget the site!

That’s all for now.  Thanks for reading.


Web Design

Web Design is a fun and creative job.  It’s also highly competitive.  I am just starting out on this career path, and already have had a couple of set backs.  I have been looking at other web designers websites, and feel pretty inadequate.  My best friend Hailey told me not to get discouraged, they have had a lot of training, and a lot of practice.  She’s right, I’m just scared I will never be as good.

Its been interesting since I quit my job.  I feel like I just went back 5 years, and I’m starting from scratch again.  Luckily I have a fiance that cares, and understands.  She is so supportive, I just don’t know how to show her how I appreciate it.  She’s the bread winner for right now, she’s the one going to work all week long, and on top of that, working on school.  She’s my hero, again, I don’t know how to tell her that.

The days are starting to blend together.  I feel like a housewife.  I spend my days catching up on my shows, watching movies, cooking dinner, and keeping the house tidy.  Its a full time job all in itself.

Hello World

Hello World,

So this is my first post on here.  I’m going to try to do this a couple of times a week, to see how I like it, and see if I can share my life with everyone.

As of today I am unemployed.  I actually quit my job working for Apple today.  I wasn’t feelin’ it.  I kept showing up to work at 8:30am and “Mr. Clipboard” would be right there waiting for us to show up, to tell us to go home.
I didn’t like the treatment. To make things worse, I showed up to work today, and was only scheduled one day next week, basically  having the week off, (which isn’t a bad thing, until you get the 1 day paycheck, and every bill collector is calling you wanting their money.)  Then it’s all down hill… So I quit!  Why?  So I can have the week off, and still have bill collectors harassing me for money, and really not having any money.  Makes no sense now that I think about it.   I applied at a couple of places today, but with the economy the way it is, I’m afraid its going to be a while before I find one.  Hopefully my fiance will understand, and try to take into consideration that at least I quit for what I thought was a good reason.  As we speak she is sitting next to me trying to read my every word.  I told her to wait until it’s published, and read it like the others will.  Afterall, I can’t tell her not to read it, she may end up being my only reader.  😦

Web Design:

I decided once and for all web design is the chosen career path for me.  I am 26 years old and basically starting school from the beginning.  A lot of work will go into it, but I think it will be worth it in the end.  I want to get the full college feeling:  living on campus, going to class, the whole 9 yards!  I can’t wait until July to move into our on campus house.  🙂

Web Design for me is starting off  at a good pace.  Other than, and, I have (all three are still works in progress).  So far all three webpages I have created have been by referral.   Hopefully I am going to have my own career in this soon enough.  Just this week I finished my own personal webpage.  It’s very basic, very “plain jane” but I like it very much.  I’m sure I’ll get bored with it, and work on ways to spruce it up. is interesting for me, having my name out there.  The .com is coming soon, really soon, maybe once I get another web design gig. 

Anyways this is my first post, I hope everyone/someone enjoys it.