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life… Part Deux

well life has been pretty eventful the past 3 months. Kat is now 12 week pregnant we just got our first sonogram on tuesday. Pretty AMAZING to see my little baby jumping around.

Work is still blah. I got a job at a big box wholesale place. I used to work for the same company so if you know me; you could probably take a guess where.

I’m still interviewing all the time. Nothing worthy is biting. Unfortunately. Also being qualified and losing the position to someone less qualified but bilingual really pisses me off. (wish I would have paid more attention in spanish class in school).
Atleast I have a mediocre job to atleast pay the bills for now. I’m not giving up on job hunting till I find something I can actually support my family with.

School is hard for me. I feel like working is going to support my family more right now. Not like I’m giving up on school, just need money. That baby deserves to have all the care in the world. Right now school isn’t going to put food on the table. Its a catch 22 because whatever job I get won’t be great because of my lack of education, but my going to school will not feed my finance and fast approaching baby.

Please excuse my grammar I am just spewing what is on my mind.

Kat is doing really good. I’m so proud of how she is doing. She is 40+ hours of work, plus school, plus being pregnant its gotta be difficult. Having me on the couch everyday when she leaves for work has got to be worse. 😦

Well that’s all for now, gotta go grocery shopping. 🙂

Next week we tell the family about the pregnancy. If you don’t hear from me by the 15th inform the FBI I think it was her mom who murdered us. She reads a lot of murder mystery books and works for a lawyer she knows how to hide a body, cover her tracks, and how to have a alibi.


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I got the Job!  I got the job I really wanted!  It makes me so happy to know I can now support my soon to be wife.  The job is pretty fantastic, especially for someone with little knowledge on what i’ll be doing.  I work for a supply company.  Doors, Windows, Fireplaces you name it, we sell it. It’s a salary gig, plus comission.  This could potentially be amazing for Kat and I.  I’m very excited about it!   It means a new step forward for us, and it means we can actually live, and not just work to live.    I’ve pretty much had the past month off, and I’m not gonna lie.  I enjoyed my “break” from working, but now I’m anxious to get back to work.   I’m worried that I won’t be able to learn the merchandise, and not fit in in the gig.  This new job is a whole new territory for me, nothing I have ever worked on before.  I can’t seem to shake the worry.  A part of me says go for it, it will be great for your family!  The other part of me wants to run away and hide.   It really is working on stuff I have never learned.  I am afraid of messing this up, and failing.  But its better to try and fail, than to not have tried at all.   Well thats all for now, I’m off to bed.


Well I got a new job. Just not exactly the one I had hoped for. Its for a Big Box retailer with nothing to offer anyone. I started on Saturday and feel like I need to find something else really fast. I positively hate it.

I have 2 other jobs I’m waiting for a final response from in the mean time, ill just have to suck it up at this Job I loathe. All well…

That’s all for now! Take it easy readers!

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Friends to me are invaluable.  I have been lucky to have some of the best friends a guy could ask for.  I love them, and they are my family.
I miss all of my friends, some more than others.  I haven’t seen any of them in 5 months, and I’m feeling a little homesick.  We moved to New Mexico because of school, and because of my Mom.  I love living here, and I enjoy being here.  It just gets a little rough sometime without some friends around.

I found out some life altering information yesterday.  Its still a secret, so I can’t go into detail (Details coming soon).   Its pretty exciting.

Work is still slow.  I’m still unemployed, still looking for a job, still bored sitting around doing nothing.

Web design is also going at a snails pace.  I still don’t have any clients.  I’m hopeful that soon I will.

Other than unemployment.  Life is good!  I’m enjoying spending time with my fiance.  I know in past posts, I complained about her not being too supportive.  I was wrong, she is pushing me to do better, and thats what I really need.  I need her to push me, my procrastination gets to me sometimes.

well thats all for now…

until next time…

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Unemployment is rough.  Wow.  I have only been unemployed for a week, and I am finding it increasingly difficult to find a job.  Call centers seem to be the only places hiring.  I had an interview for a company yesterday.  It seemed like a great job, sounded fun.  Than I learned it was minimum wage.  I haven’t made minimum wage in 10  years.  REALLY!?  I of course took it, I have a second interview sometime next week.  Of course I am going to continue looking.

As I suspected, my fiance isn’t staying as understanding and supportive as she was last week.  Its only been a week, and it happens to be the end of the month, so she has paid every bill, I truly appreciate her for doing so.  It comes across as me being a burden, (which I obviously am) and she isn’t helping my self-esteem a single bit by acting like she is.  Acting like it’s this huge disaster that she isn’t able to buy something for herself, and that she isn’t able to save.  It feels unappreciated that I helped her SO much in the past 3 years.  It feels like all that I have done for her has counted for nothing.  All well.

I love her, I just wish she would understand a little bit better.  I wish she would suck it up, and know that I am trying, and know that I didn’t plan this.  It makes me feel pitiful, and pathetic.

Web Design is still a major move for my future, it just feels really dim right now.   It feels like it’s on pause, no money in, no creativeness going out.  Don’t forget the site!

That’s all for now.  Thanks for reading.

Web Design

Web Design is a fun and creative job.  It’s also highly competitive.  I am just starting out on this career path, and already have had a couple of set backs.  I have been looking at other web designers websites, and feel pretty inadequate.  My best friend Hailey told me not to get discouraged, they have had a lot of training, and a lot of practice.  She’s right, I’m just scared I will never be as good.

Its been interesting since I quit my job.  I feel like I just went back 5 years, and I’m starting from scratch again.  Luckily I have a fiance that cares, and understands.  She is so supportive, I just don’t know how to show her how I appreciate it.  She’s the bread winner for right now, she’s the one going to work all week long, and on top of that, working on school.  She’s my hero, again, I don’t know how to tell her that.

The days are starting to blend together.  I feel like a housewife.  I spend my days catching up on my shows, watching movies, cooking dinner, and keeping the house tidy.  Its a full time job all in itself.